Andrew.

it's weird. i havent been into facebook for ages. make that at all. not until i found out sha actually added me as a friend.. in college. LOL. went in to approve her and well.. went into stalker mode.

then it happened.

i stumbled onto a dedication page to someone by the name of andrew. he has passed on. i didnt know him, but he was a close friend to many of the people i knew. and he looked very much like a happy go lucky and playful guy. he was pretty good looking too. and the thing is, he was born in my year! that would make him, my age. but his fate wasnt as good as something went wrong, and from my stalkerish research it happened during his gym. and now he has moved on into another world. i watched his memorial clip on youtube. and then i wondered. if i was to die... would i be remembered like that? :/

life's just so short and im wasing it being antisocial and just doing my own things.
sometimes i wonder if i've done enoguh.
sometimes i wonder why i let myself go into the bitter stage.
sometimes i wonder what made me like this.
sometimes i wish i hadnt changed.

i dont know. maybe i should just try to lead a better life.

*confused and lost*

bah. im off to actually do work. it's time for a change. i hope.