love?

have you ever been in love? many have said they have. What exactly is love anyways? In my opinion i think some times you only realize you're in love when you dont get it. Cause for some, love is when they wake up every morning, thinking of that special someone of theirs being in bed with another man, the wrong one. And all they can do about it is hope they're happy. I guess that's one explanation of it right?

Love seems to be a never ending question for humankind since the time adam and eve was made i reckon. If it wasnt for that sinful fruit i guess now, we'll never really know that true and actual meaning of love until we meet the one creator who created us huh. That is if we do get to meet him and not Lucifer, aka Satan. blehhh.

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It's been 2 months and i've still got no job. I'm just rotting arent i? :x wheeee.

ergh. desperado.

I decided to want to blog today. And typical me, as usual... i forgot the email to this blogspot account. Thank God for computer cache memories. Unfortunately, they dont remember passwords a pro and a con at the very same time. :/ Thus, that being said, it took me a whole 30 minutes (pardon the exaggeration but it felt like it) i finally managed to crack my min open and dig out my password from one of the many veins that carried information. After that the mood to blog just .. went *pwoof*

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oh, wait! it's back now. How awezom is my mood swings? (: lol. again, another pro and con in the same time span.

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So, i feel fat. And this time, i meant it. and im gonna actually work on it. We all know size 12 is not fat says Meg Cabot (the author of the book if you didnt already know), or size 14 is not fat either like she says. But still, she lived with the mat-sallehs (no offense intended). Half the people there are either super skinny or super .. obese? Cutting to the point, again, i feel FAT. So this time, i whipped up a diet plan as easy as whipping up egg yolks with a sieve a very very simple task that i still cant seem to do (yes, i meant both the diet and the yolk thing). So, here's the plan.

Monday was yesterday. All went well except the breakfast part where i gagged non stop. Somehow the oats i made turned out half cooked and tasted well, plain. Attempted to add raisins from dubai supposedly super sweet and yummy. Had to throw them out in the end cause the oats just sucked. Made me a tuna sandwich instead. Breakfast got pushed back to 10.30 :/ .. Lunch time was Chicken rice cause i realised i forgot to buy chicken for my porridge. Finally, the last damn wrong thing was i missed the gym class due to slacking. - edited : another wrong thing, i slept at 3 am -

I'd rate my monday a 6 over the perfect 10. - edited : rating drops to 4/10 -

Tuesday is today .. Everything got worse -_-" And they usually say 'tomorrow will be a better day' .. I woke up at 9.30 and realised, i've just missed breakfast AND gym. There goes 3 classes of my life. Ate my breakfast at 10 am today. And Lunch was at 12. For that, i had Stiploin with sweet potatoes and a strawberry and banana milkshake. That was the breaking straw of the diet -_-' .. in my defense, bananas are healthy! (: Had late tea time treats at 5 ish pm. Gonna have me my tuna sandwich for dinner (: somehow im hooked on it. I hope it makes me thinner. *fingers crossed*

Ratings for tuesday is a bigger drop to 2 over 10 for not following anything! :/

I wonder if i can last the week.

friend or foe?

i hate facebook. yes, i do. i really really do. Somehow, despite hearing quite a number of people agreeing with me on this, they themselves seem to have taken part in the facebook craze. (no offense intended to anyone) why do i hate facebook? well, many must know, my memory is just as good as a goldfishes'. Very obviously, i wouldnt want to be insulting myself, thus im merely stating a fact as it is. In my point of view, i only remember those people of which i think is important to me. Is that not what life is about? remembering the good stuff and forgetting the bad.

I for one do not want to be rekindled with my past foes. Now tell me, why would a person want to acknowledge the presence of one who has made the good life of a simple person slightly more complicated what yet to add these people as 'friends' ? I dont see the relevence in adding everybody you know (or even dont for some) for the sake of being popular. I honestly dont even get why some people who clearly despises my existance clicked on the add friend icon on my page.. WHY? i honestly do not get it :/

Besides the foes. how about those who so desperately wants to be friends? There's been a few who just some how self invited themselves into my life. Yes, i admit i shouldnt have replied to their innocent greetings from the beginning but yet, how was i to know that i didnt know them when here i was thinking "oh another person that i've forgotten from my past" ... litle did i know.. well. you know how the story ends :/

Im just semi ranting. cause i keep getting distracted by MSN chats as well as my poker :/ yes on fb. the only reason i use the damn fb is for three games. -_- im lame like that. Well, facebook rants beats my semi mid life crisis of being over weight i suppose :c Thus, semi facebook rant it shall be.