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it's been a while...

sometimes im just so lazy to write my feelings asd thoughts down as they tend to change so constantly. boo.

Anyways. it's an offday for me. the boy is out of town. and i just handed in the development model which passed on to the final. so today is just an off day. did everything at my own will. i .. went.. to.. the gym. LOL. it's been a week since i've been there. ergh. i dont think im losing weight at all. i've been pigging out like mad. from fast food joints to home made fatness :( this all comes from living alone i guess :/ but still.... sigh. i feel a bit the hopeless at the moment :(

anyways, gym was packed today there were some new trainers *shiny winking eyes* there but the amount of college girls has shot up. haha..

There's this pair of girls they look exctly like sisters but well, by the way they talk you can tell they're just best friends. heee. and there's this vibe around them being so wannabe-ish. they gossip gossip and gossip waaay more that actually using the machines and stuff. but the moment any trainers approach them... hoho, their voice totally changes to some cutsey high pitched tone. bahhh. *eyes rolling*

Besides them, there's this girl. oh yeahhh this girl i dont know why she even bothers to come to the gym. she's new. brand new. on the first day she joined i was there. she was wearing a long flowy picnic like skirt, all dressed up indeed. just not for gym -.-" the next day, she came fully cladded with very little clothing. her "gym pants" were so micro mini her butt was showing and it looks squeezed out as the pants were tight. And you know those sports bras that you wear beneath shirts? i think she didnt understand that concept as she just wore it up front without covering up. -_-" you can imagine the guys staring. a girl coming to gym looking like she's wearing some kinky lingerie =.= .. astonishing. The next day she came. whaaa. i almost died laughing. it was a contrast to what she wore the day before. this time, she was fully covered up. Dressed in a wind breaker, the big type ones with baggy loose pants and some thight baby tee. real contrast. hmm. oh well.

my gym really lack hot chics. then again im kinda glad for that :p

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i see you happily flirting with her. i see you being happy with her. i dont mind .. really, i dont. im glad you finally found someone. someone that shows me you've moved on. someone to end our lingering past. but yet, why does that lead to you not being able to even look at me? i know our past isnt as sweet as candy flossings but still, we had our moments. are you just gonna let them go without looking back? sigh. our polonged silence and my stalking ways have gotten the best of be... im glad i dont think of you much no more. but sometimes on onely nights you stick out like a sore thumb in my blissful memories of the past... i really wish our fate would be different after those five long hard years of ups and downs.


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i miss my boy. am i weird? am i too clingy? :/ boo. i guess i am .. maybe it's in my nature to just cling on to the ones i love so dear. cling on so tight that they suffocate and hate me. heeeeeee... i wish i wasnt like that. i want to be mature. mature enough to know when to hold on and when to let go. i long to be independant. in ways that i am definitely not now.. i crave for something to fill this awkward void. i dont even know why it's there or what would fill it.. i just want to fill it up..